Slipping Away

Every day it slips away,
Further and further from mine,
Closer and closer to a memory.
But if it were mine then it would be,
...and I wanted it to be...
Yet it never was.
That heart sinking reallity
That your fate was not mine,
That you wanted something more
Or something less however
The scales of time weigh.
It's was my fault..
My carelessness....
...not paying attention...
Until suddenly,,, the screech
Of tires on pavement,
The clash of metal, and a scream,
and my heart stops
As I recognize the blood on the glass.
What have I done?
I'm not supposed to even be here,
I had no place.
... I have no place...        

Love

I curse you delicate rose,
How is it that you bloom so,
So sweet the scent and deep the red,
When all that is within you dead,
As you pricked the prick that never bled,
Your roots grew deep beneath the earth,
And dug the grave that then gave birth,
To the immortal bleeding seed,
That you did so much wish to be,
Then sucked the life out of your love,
As a single day was not enough,
So your love it seems could not be swayed,
And the petals will so fall away,
Then free your sin that you may die,
And shed that blooming petal lie.

Disconnected

Heat courses through my skin,
And the blade becomes hot.
And while I bled upon the floor,
Bleeding I was not.
Yet red is red either way it flows,
I did not cut myself I know.
So while the dripping cursed my viens,
I wished to bleed against the grain...
And bleed and bleed although it stopped,
To catch it's breath and gently mop,
Itself up from the cold hard ground,
I decide to loose myself there down,
And throw myself into it's spill,
To find out where and if it will,
Keep me there away from him,
Or send me home to dive and swim,
Into the pool so bitter dark,
And drink it up yet leave it's mark,
To scar my skin reminding me,
Of how I wished to with him be.
But pull me out and sink it's teeth,
Into the full breast beneath,
The silky white yet lifeless skin,
And fill the blood from out within,
To make me see that writhing red,
And disconnect me from the dead,
That I may miss his warming kiss,
Into the cold and lonely bliss.        

Bloody Dreams

In my dreams,
I saw your face,
And as my lips,
Began to taste,
The blood that ran,
From your slit wrist,
I sucked you in,
And held your kiss,
Until my soul,
Was full with life,
I held your vein,
Beneath my knife.
I drank and drank,
That scent so sweet,
Then cleaned you up,
So nice and neat,
Then put you back,
Inside your cell,
Buried you deep,
Inside your hell,
And as I walk,
Away from you,
I know you'll wish,
Me back too soon,
So I will sleep,
Since I have fed,
And dream once more,
Amongst the dead.        

This End

The heat and sun that took my breath,
Has left me here, now, so near my death,
And as I rot upon this sand,
My mind returns to that pure land,
So green, so clear, so full of life,
And how I wished to be a wife,
To love and grow within those trees,
And dream of things that seemed so sweet.
My hands now hot in the crusty ground,
Ran upon your skin once, with that sound,
That sound of love, of peace, of fate,
But now, fate seems, has closed that gate,
And banished me to this place so hot,
To this place in which I am now forgot,
I fell lost, alone, and worth no one,
But my heart still hopes that he will come,
And this end will not end, but pass me by,
That this not be the way I die,
But all I see, disheartens me,
And oh how I wish, once more, to bleed.        

Here I Am

"Here I am" said Sam, "In all my darkness understand,
That I am still only a man, and sometimes hard to comprehend."
And walked away so miserably, To see if I would follow he, into the darkness quietly, because he knew I longed to bleed.
And though I may seem morbid still, I long to smell that living thrill, of life and love, that poisoned pill, to bring me hope only to kill.
And bury me beneath the tree, so Sam can find me finally, to dig me up and set me free, to wander there so aimlessly.
"Here I am" said I to Sam, "In all your darkness understand, that you are still only a man, and cannot seem to comprehend."
And walked away resentfully, to see if he would follow me, into this darkness he can't be, and yet he bled so beautifully.        

My Love in Darknes

I saw you in the morning light,
As I held on to the passing night,
To breathe in deep, that scent, of you,
Then watch you leave me, as the moon.
So as the sun light touched the ground,
I searched to hear that silent sound,
But darkness shall not find me here,
Without your love, so close and near.
Thus when the night can find its way,
To chase away those sun lit rays,
Then darkness shall, this heart, so touch,
Within those arms I love so much.
For my love in darkness, comes with you,
And twighlight does so take you soon,
Away from me into the light,
But bring you back upon the night.        

Secret Dream

I would like to fall asleep and dream, to let my mind wander to that place we met.
Do you remember that place?
If I dream of the forrest with the berries red, would you meet me there?
And this time if I ask you to swim in the water dark, would you mind getting wet?
Or if I would wage a war against the world, would you sit by my side and watch the destruction happily?
If I fall asleep alone, would you know to fall asleep as well? Would you know the time? Could you find me?
Would you search for me in a dream in time,
If seven with eight did rhyme, and know that nine was much too late, so eight could not compensate?
Would you search me out instead, and find me dreaming in my bed, as gently the story fills my head, although the story is not read?
Can you find my secret in this dream, and find me in that place between, between the forrest and the plain, and meet me there one time again?