How I hate to hate this fall,,, diminishing myself deep and far into this sinking depression that only leads me further and further down that hole to nothing but nothing. I feel the dark creeping closer slowly crawling its way across to me inch by inch I can feel it's cold fingers on the tips of my toes in the darkness and instead of jump I only stand there cornered and wishing it would just hurry and consume me entirely until I forget what it was like to see the sunlight. If I forget I cannot remember... If I cannot remember,,, then I cannot know anything else but nothing. I close my eyes, screaming in agony of still being aware that there is someplace different,,, there is something good, there is something real,,, there is a place of peace and understanding where the rain is soft and my soul is quiet and full of smile. Yet here I stand, praying in darkness to just forget and submit my entity to that fabricated reality of cold shallow thick muddy creek water that everyone goes to when the rain comes no more,,, and just drink with them. Because I am now,,,, them.
Makes you wish you hadn't followed the white rabbit or taken the red pill...
