Awake

12/29/05

To fly between this breeze and that echo,
See the white of that glistening light.
I know that forever waits in that chamber made of my solitary confinement,,, and so it shall have to wait a bit longer still.
I take that walk once again as it seems I'm stumbling upon another premonition of coexistence. Flattered with diamond and white gold upon the finger of premeditated theoretics and all the while that tune that deafens me into retreat to scurry back into that stubborn stupor of a wake plays monotonously in it's silent repetition.
Becoming more and more obsessed with something that I have no comprehension of, yet I allow myself to be lost in it for the love of the insanity of it all. Just to let go and not worry about the consequences of my inhibitions for a change would be an idea that entertains me through the night until I see you once more.
Shuffling through the covers in a panicked frustrated attempt to recreate the sex scented night before when your sweat and wet kisses covered the insides of my darkest fantasies. Lapping up every drop of my existence in an attempt to free me for the moment that you need me to be free upon you.
And there you are again, thrusting atop me in a sensual needing beckon that I need so much more to be forced upon me, and why you don't just take it, I am uncertain, but I love the thought of it anyway. I'm almost mad in the pleasure yet I feel the longing for aggression that you seem almost scared to impose upon me.
Falling,,, I feel myself drop, only this time to fall upon a coffin bed of satin and rose petals. I look up from the ground to see the rectangle outline of an overcast sky, the cold winter air hardening my skin, and I feel the shadow of the sarcophagus top shut above me sealing me in to safety away from everything.
Your arms around me as we lie in solitude of the earthy chamber,,, I sleep.... a thousand years it seems I sleep and dream of waking in a new morning full of your love and discovery. I dream until you wake me again.

I Laugh

12/19/05

I laughed,,,
The louder the music played the more I laughed.
Swinging around into he melancholy of the moon lights enchantment,,,
I cried,,,
I cried the tear that fell a thousand times, pooling in the puddle of our existence. Feeling the gentle stroke of his hand wipe away that sadness in an instance...
... and I smiled...
Coddled in a blanket of everything and nothing, made only of significance that cannot be possessed nor gifted. Sprinkled with stars and covered with midnights thickness. Watching the morning be born as it has through out all eternity, but never as it had for us.
and I died,,,,
Falling away from what use to be me yet again for what seems like my only destiny. All the while searching back for the sound of that rhythm in silence and hearing only the ironic quiet of a blanketed memory...
... and I laughed....